Enthusiasm and gratitude

Enthusiasm and gratitude

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Enthusiasm and gratitude

I haven’t read stories and blogs on your websites since May, but last night I read them. When I read one after the other more and more wonderful feeling opened up inside of me. Enthusiasm was included as well. I also enjoyed reading my own stories and felt happy that I could “add” to these miracles. Thank you. Also thank you for selecting and exposing these stories to us. It gives a lot. I felt the liveliness, the power and the honesty of the writings. I just wanted to give you feedback on how good they are and how much they give!
Thank you.

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Symbols

Symbols

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Symbols

After yesterday’s session, I woke up at night, I couldn’t go back to sleep and I continued the confrontation we were dealing during the day within the group.
The following words came as key: faith, unconditional love (male/female love).
I felt the faith couldn’t be entirely proper inside of me, until I can’t accept, forgive and let men go. And I felt the same with love.
When I opened the magenta, blocked feelings came up; these covered the power of my faith during the years. After confrontation myself and transform with alchemy I became the faith itself.

I remembered a story that happened in my childhood in Máriabesnyő. I went home, it was dark. I would have had to go through a tunnel under a train tracks to get home.
A man from Máriabesnyő came with a squeaking bike; he was the man who often appeared at my window as a voyeur. I was really scared. I was afraid of going through the tunnel.
I was afraid of being raped. I thought I’d walk away on the other side of the embankment, but there was a huge white dog. I was afraid terrible, how I could get home. I climbed up to the embankment, I headed home on the rails, and I was frozen in fear.
Just came to my mind now: do you know what direction the rails lead? It leads towards the Church of the Assumption in Máriabesnyő. I understood the real meaning of the symbols now, what the dog, the man, and the rail wanted to show me. Thanks for everything!!!!!!!!

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Recognition

Recognition

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Recognition

Yesterday was the last day of our training.

It’s hard to describe everything that is in my head and especially in my heart. I feel little bit wobbly, but I think it is the same with the others. Even the training was a very intensive phase of learning I don’t feel overwhelmed moreover I understand much more of your presentations now. Afternoon my inner voice said via a feeling to listen your You Tube video with title of ‘Sense and Sensibility’.  And that’s exactly what I needed to clarify the open question inside of me.

Thank you so much for all of what you and Bogi said about our Saturday night’s “performance” on Sunday morning. Another layer opened up again, and it was mainly replaced by the fact that confrontation did not mean that I was not lovable, or I was selfish, bastard.

It was a sign to be aware of and raise awarness via Divine Self-Awareness! Thank you very much!

The education of the Divine Self-Awareness has been started in Hungarian language,

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Mercy

Mercy

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Mercy

To be honest I was also surprised how smoothly my first day was in the New Year. I was flowing. I had never felt such a harmony on 1st of January before. This is even more interesting as the last day of the previous year was completely the opposite.
I was very nervous and tense, and I didn’t feel happy or good and this mood increasingly disturbed me. I didn’t understand as there wasn’t any reason of it.

Since I met Divine Self-Awareness I look differently my current feelings and events what happens to me. I know more and more about the law of energies and I can see and experience day by day how they work. I was aware of the fact it is better for me if I came out from this negative feeling, and I need to do this not only because I did like better the harmony, peace and tranquility, but because if I stayed on this low vibration level, I would attract events what I could avoid. It happened so many times to me in the past month, so I wouldn’t be warned further. I decided the best to do: raising my vibration level and meditate.

As soon as I started the meditation some feelings intensified very much such as: pain, suffering, fear and dread. Old memories relating to my dead mom came to the surface from very deep. There was a time in my life when it wasn’t easy to me with her for many years. With her behavior she didn’t give me any calm minute and kept me continuously in tension, I was mortified emotionally. She amused me like a cat with a mouse. In meditation I saw the picture in front of me: I tried to escape as a mouse but she tried to catch me, didn’t let me go. I tried to escape again and again but there was no escape, she played with me hard. She was calm, rigid and brutal, her strength was not slackening. My fight is hopeless. I feel I never let her go. At this time I turn to her with hope and I look at in her eyes and I was begging her: Mommy, please have mercy on me! Mercy, please… Mommy please. I wanted to continue the meditation to see what  the end of this game was, but no more picture, no more feeling came. I was said and I felt helpless. I wanted but I couldn’t come out of it. I felt if I didn’t solve it, my soul would be hurt and I would feel badly even in my body. “I needed to suffer again” and it was very bad for my soul. Once my Ego’s power of wanting just gone, ego gave up its will to control, the continuous suffering ended, he gave up destroying everything around me and he gave up hurting myself again and again to feel the pain. My ego got tired and I was also tired… I gave up wanting, I let everything go, I didn’t want anything. I put my soul on the gold tray and passed to my Higher Self. Let’s happen what should have been happen: “Thy will be done”

I was waiting in calm, in peace. I asked my Higher Self to send me any sign why it happened to me. After it I just took a rest and came back and continued my day.

Evening – following my feeling – I watched “The Shack” movie. I spend the New Year’s Eve at home in peace and calm than I went to bed.

The sign what I asked during the day in meditation on deep conscious level – I got asleep. It was a wonderful dream; it left very deep emotional mark in me.  I still feel that emotion here in my soul. In my sleep I saw my Mom but in a completely different quality as I know her in my life. She was around 50 years old, elegant, strong and healthy. We cleaned the house in harmony and peace, her room which was crowded previously full with unnecessary staff, now it was transparent, clean, and clear and ordered. There wasn’t any unnecessary thing in it. At that time I noticed two large, framed photos I hadn’t seen before. I couldn’t realized exactly who and how many people were on the picture but I had the feeling they were my family. It was interesting that they reflected on their faces happiness, joy, respect and loving of the life but it was completely different as I had known them before. It was a pleasant, warm feeling when I looked the photo. Suddenly it came to my mind this photo was taken by my Mom. I felt the softness of her soul, and I felt the reason why she took the photo. Her aim was to keep the photo for me forever and remember me of the power and feeling of saint family. I went to her and said thank you for the wonderful memory. I was very grateful for it. I hugged her and asked for pardon. Peace, love flowed between us. My Mom was very nice, understanding and conforming. She never showed me this kindness in her life. In the sleep I grabbed her hands, which were very calm and soft. It seemed very real and still I can feel the touch of her skin.

I was waking up in peace, harmony on the first morning of 2019. I still keep the message from my mother in my soul and feel the mercy which was never given to me when she was alive, but she could compensate it from beyond.

My dear Higher-Self, great mercy for the sign, you gave me and for the mercy which filled my total body.

B.

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Pardoned myself

Pardoned myself

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Pardoned myself

Enikő has a lot youtube lectures and meditations, among these my favorite is the Consciousness. (My second favorite is: the Release of sexual blocks.)

If I do not have any special topic, but I know I need to do self-awareness, to get out of my shadow characteristics, and transfer them to new creative power I always listen to this lecture. Thanks to the releases I faced many of my shadow personalities unconsciously also. In this case I just let the sound-recording to go and I let myself to be driven by my Higher-Self and show me pictures and feel the real feelings opened in my Wild-Self.
On higher vibration level the intuition tells me – even if I do not have special topic – what those shadow characteristics I need to work with by my Higher-Self on that moment.

 “Mercy” – I needed almost one year to feel what this word really means what the energy of it and what is behind of it.

One year ago Boglárka asked me: “Do you mercy yourself sometimes?”

 “Meeee? I even don’t know what it is” – I replied.

Have mercy on you sometimes – asked me but I didn’t understand what she was talking about it.

Thinking back to the years behind me I really haven’t known what mercy meant. My mind always was very busy. If I wasn’t thinking about something I scarified my body in different way: professional level of sport (result of it: arthritis, steady tiredness), diet (with zero result) and also I was maximalist to fulfill other’s requirements. I needed to be busy all the time no matter what I did I just did something. If there wasn’t anything to do, nothing to think my life was stopped and I was bored – I couldn’t find my place. I don’t know what the reason of it was or even it was good for something but that was how I lived.

One day in the morning I listened the meditation “Consciousness” and my Higher-Self worked on the real meaning of MERCY.

I saw myself as slave hunter acted crazy: I found the runaway slaves and after cruel torture I burned black men at the stake to show my power. I enjoyed their suffering and their death. The root cause of this horror was a man: I was very young lady when I felt in love but my lover left me , so in my sorrow I followed the pattern of my father and started to hunt slaves. I was brutal with them to reduce my heart-pain. I was satisfied and happy when I saw how they suffer. (Now I can see this happened in my current life as well: after love failure I followed my father’s profession. But this time I realized and I changed  afterwards. To be honest it wasn’t conscious decision.)

On deep conscious level by raising my vibration level I stepped back to my previous life and there I connected my young self with the golden string of unconditional love and with redeemed energy of Earth, the magenta. I did the same with the man who left me in that life. I didn’t look at the real root cause of our break, I just let the energy of unconditional love go around us.
Our story ended the same: he left but on the three aspect of universal love: I could forgive him, I could let him go and I could accept his decision. As I didn’t dig myself at the bottom of the root cause I felt sorrow in my heart, but it wasn’t mortal, destructive, vindictive pain. After couple of years when my lovesickness had gone, I met my later husband. We had a very nice life. Though slaves were around us, there wasn’t any cruelty with them!
What I got as life essential from my previous life, it was the enormous power of tenderness in unconditional love what I felt finally!!
I could mercy myself and others from this warm but huge power.

The education of the Divine Self-Awareness has been started in Hungarian language,

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Without happiness

Without happiness

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Without happiness

Since I participated on the Divine Self-Awareness training my relationship with my parents became peacefull and it is full of harmony. Almost a year ago I left my husband and I live with my children in my parents’ house, but meanwhile I try to find our new home. I would like to have a separate home or flat for living only with my children.
Recently I was joyless even if it was hard to admit to myself. I was told myself I woud be happy if I have a new flat but I realized the reason of my unhappiness was not around my own flat. I imagined the desired nice home what I wanted but I felt without my family it was just a flat and I knew I needed home. My family had broken because of me.
Is there any meaning of the life if we don’t love ones we could love originally? And who could be best loved: our parents, our partners, our children… and finally everybody.
I thought about what I’m happy about. And what am I feeling and doing compare to it? What is my goal, my purpose? What do I expect from life? I do expect holiness in every moment of my life, by the way I make it and create it! Reaching it: I need to confrontate my shadows, also I need to transform my shadowcharacteristics as these are the obsticles of living in real joy and happiness.

The education of the Divine Self-Awareness has been started in Hungarian language,

if you are interested in English and would like to know more information about it,

please contact Andrea Gilian on the following phone number: +36- 30-183-2391.