Feeling the Wholeness

Feeling the Wholeness

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Feeling the Wholeness

I asked my Higher Self to show me the meaning of the dove’s tu-whoo what reminds me of my childhood?

I was driven by my Higher Self on a long way back to the past, back to one of my previous life. I came to the Earth, to the phisycal world in the form of Light Being to increase the vibration level of the people to reach a higher intelligence. As I had difficulties with money, I lost my faith, I forgot that I can raise the vibration level of the people with my light to help them to reach a higher level of consciousness. The will and influence started to work inside of me. I forgot the promise I made at conception: „Just give and flow with unconditional love.” I looked at my will, my influencing shadow-personality in my previous life. I put the new energy transformed by the alchemy of the soul in my wild-self, so I was able to feel again the Wholeness. I let this feeling flow in all cells of my body, in every receptor of my brain, in all vibration level of my soul and in all dimensions of my spirit. I arrived back among people with the quality of high vibration energy that I put in my wild-self like previously. I asked my Higher Self to help me doing well in the material world and to leave the free choice to the people.  I felt the light coming to my body through the top of my head. I felt the blocks in the receptors of my brain. I asked my Higher Self to release my blocks as the light passed through my body. As the light went down I felt my liver, I felt bitternes and vanity in it. Meanwhile the light released the blocks and my shadows inside of me. The light covered my body til my toe. I felt the faith and wholeness, there wasn’t will inside of me at all, only the light: „just give, flow, collect experiences, let the free will to everybody”. This is the way how everybody can go on the spiral if he wants to. I asked my Higher Self to help me keep going on my way, and give me tools with I can influence my enviroment through the „status of wholeness”.

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Lost diamonds

Lost diamonds

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Lost diamonds

I would like to share with you a story about one of my best friend. I will call him Jacint.  After Jacint read a book she started to observe her life, search the root causes of her life situations on conscious level.  She started self-awareness. When we met first I had built huge walls around me, I wasn’t open to people, I barely left my home. Jacint told stories about herself, about her recognitions about the way how she saw the life. Despite my will I listened to her and I realized later that I felt better all the time after our conversations. She showed me how to look the bright side of the life.  Finally I started the Divine Self-Awareness training with her faith, love and support. The walls started to fall down at this time.  Our shadow-personalities were recognized and let go by the soul of alchemy day by day, week by week and month by month.
Jacint’s ego resisted stronger and stronger as she recognized her shadow-personalities and her games. Her ego built a gate to stop her in self-awareness. She tried to solve her problems with different solutions.
I was going on my way with the method of Divine Self-Awareness. I told my stories to Jacint, I shared my deep feelings with her, she could see my changes and she also could enjoy all my developments and joys with a pure heart. She loved when I cried; she loved it if I laughed. She loved if she could strengthen the faith in me.  She asked me not to be influenced by her, by not taking the way of self-awareness. She always was thankful for the trust when I shared my meditations with her. She refused to use the energy which comes from connection the golden string and magenta in our Wild-Self. She solved her life situations and problems with other way, as she did in the past.
Time passed. She had a new role and she felt something went wrong, she had headache, she didn’t feel good. I asked her to look at the root cause of this in meditation. Her Ego even didn’t want to hear about the golden- magenta method. After months her Higher-Self helped her. She followed her feeling: finally she did a meditation listening you tube and her real way was shown to her in pictures, in feelings by her Higher-Self. I was very happy about it.
I supported her with my unconditional love, with my faith and with the feeling came from my meditations. We talked a lot what helped our self-development mutually. We didn’t play any energy game; we didn’t want to solve each other’s problem. During our conversations our vibration levels were raised and we charged each other with energy.
I already knew that real solutions can be reached only by my Higher-Self on deep consciousness.
I am blessed, grateful and thankful for the moment when Jacint’s Higher-Self opened the golden-magenta for her and her shadow-personalities were transformed to light and faith by alchemy of the soul. She was surprised the way how she could put down the sorrow of the past, and the new energy passed through her body as a result of facing Ego treated by alchemy of the soul. Next days I shared with her my meditations which were about the topics of “Blessing” and “Sanctity of life”. One day later she got the message of “Penance” in her meditation. I realized through her feelings how much I hurt everyone who loved and love me. I also felt how much disappointment I caused them.  Thanks to her I could experience in meditation the real feeling of “Penance” with the method of Divine Self-Awareness. Deep down in my Soul I felt there wasn’t any subordination, we are all one and we can experience true feelings in meditation. If we believe in ourselves and in each other with unconditional love, we could find the lost diamonds.
B.

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Role of my pusillanimity

Role of my pusillanimity

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Identification of the role of my pusillanimity

I had to realize my life became heartless recently. I did everything without patient, quickly like a robot, without any empathy, everything was indicated by me ego. This was hardly tolerated by my environment. Objects were felt down out of my hands, I broke everything and it showed I actually acted without any emotion.
I decided I search the root cause of it in meditation to see the way I got here.
During the years I have already paid attention to myself to analyze my life situations from the past, as in my childhood I was humiliated by my parents a lot.

I was 1.5 years younger than my sister. We done everything together all the time, but I felt I was living as her shadow. We were differentiated by our parents since we started the school. My sister was the very clever one, she was worth for being educated, trained. She needed to fulfill high expectations. I felt there was something wrong with me as I wasn’t highly educated; I just needed to finish the obligatory schools. My parents put emphasize and told me I didn’t need to go to University just enough to finish the school with average mark. They were called me dumb.

My defeatism increased when we stepped into the age, when the boys began to take interest in us. All boys are adored her, so my defeatism even more increased. The boys were interested in me but by then I formed such a distorted picture about myself that I thought there could be a big problem with these guys if they wanted to get to know me.

In order to survive my parent’s judgments and hurtful remarks, I closed my feeling and became senseless. This was my ego’s survival program. Of course I had no idea about it and I just swam comfortable with tide. As the years passed I felt something wrong with me, inside of me, I felt I burnt out. This is how I found the Divine Self-Awareness.

Finally I got to recognize the lack of my sense, my soulless. I raised my vibration level with the method of Divine Self-Awareness and I asked my Higher Self to show me the root cause of my soulless. On high vibration level I could see that my conception was with the energy of strong eroticism, so naturally I brought it in myself this energy as a footprint. I had the chance several times during meditations to see, feel the eroticism brought from my previous lives.  Also it was clear to me that I can’t experience any more with this erotic energy in this life, now I do have the possibility to transform it to creative, divine power, transform to spiritual ability. I recognized I needed life situations made me inhibitory to avoid possible sexual deviation. So I understood my parents cruel-looking behavior, it served me to keep the light inside of me closed via shyness and pusillanimity. If I hadn’t close my light with the pusillanimity and soulless program of the ego, I would collected my experiences with lust energy, would causes complete burnt out and I couldn’t use my talent given by God.

I realized that my sister also served the same aim as my parents: protect my light with pusillanimity. Thanks to this last puzzle piece I understood the behavior of my family.  I’m grateful for all of them and for all the life situations created by them in order not to loose my light until today. Thanks for it I can live with my talent and I can be who I’m in truth.

Many thanks for all participants!
V.

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My first independent initiation

My first independent initiation

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My first independent initiation

During Creative Self-Awareness training I open myself and I get closer to my real Self, and one day a miracle happened in my home: my Higher-Self initiated me. By this my spiritual rebirth happened.

Process of my initiation: an arm extended a shiny baby to me and actually I was this baby. I put this pure, transparent baby into my wild self, and I grow her my today’s age. My Higher Self opened the energy for helping me to get rid of my shadow characteristics and shadow personalities.  At the same moment when I get rid of my shadow personality one after the other, the alchemy of the soul transformed them to light. The new quality of energy derived from the transformation of my shadow personalities, flowed to my wild self. Got things rolling very rapidly indeed, if movie were it would had been over, there weren’t more shadow personalities!
As it was over, I was raising up and up in a tubular channel. Energy space of my Wild Self expanded. I arrived on a different energy level, holy; uplifted energy flowed here I had never felt before. Oh my God, it was a miracle. I arrived home. There was no grief, no sorrow, no fear, no doubt, only endless love, real happiness, satisfaction, peace and harmony. I will never forget this feeling! I arrived to Light! I connected to my helpers in triangle shape and the energy flew among us.

Members of my family appeared as next scene: my relatives, my friends, my acquaintance, unknown people and I shade the pure energy to them.  We became one and we were flying.

After all, an unknown voice told to me: “you would get whole knowledge here”
With this sentence my initiation is ended, it became clear to me I reached my personal development  on certain level, the life starts for me now.

Thanks for everything Enikő, thanks for waking up my sleeping soul so I can open and access the promise I made at conception.

F.

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Transform of my pusillanimity

Transform of my pusillanimity

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Transform of my pusillanimity

I’m writing my below story apropos of topic which came up on women grouped meeting. During and after the guided meditation became completely clear to me the origin of my pusillanimity.

My patrilineal grandfather was grown up in a very poor family during the Second World War. In additionally he caught poliomyelitis so he became lame in the left foot.
In spite the hard circumstances he got next to a master and entered a profession.  Despite of his physical disability he was a hard worker and he sold his own goods made by him diligently. Later he ran a store, in the time when the self-employment wasn’t so easy and neither popular to do. He was a well-respected person on local level.
He belonged to the first four people in the village who was able to buy a car at that time. He had two daughters and a son (my father). Two girls had to help in housework and in venture. My father was born when his sisters were teenager so he was spoilt. He had everything he wanted but he couldn’t value it. My grandfather helped all of his children to start their life, supported them to launch their own business. My father got his own car repair shop to ensure his family’s financials. Unfortunately he couldn’t appreciate it. He repaired his friend’s car for free – his friends didn’t pay anything or just a drink was paid for him in the pub for his job.
Before and after work he went to the pub. He couldn’t respect his own company what he got from my grandfather. He wasn’t a mature man neither a responsible father. He spent all of his money all the time. His parents treated him as a black sheep as he had lots of messy affairs and he lost also the family fortune. As my father was treated by his family like a bad guy we – his children – also were treated badly by them and not only by the family but also by the people in the village. We were discriminated in the school also.
I think at this time I started to feel I was inferior, I was not as much as other, I didn’t have so much right than others, I was marked. My pusillanimity formed, I didn’t respect myself. I thought due to my family situation I couldn’t get more, only that was my life.
I couldn’t respect myself in my childhood and I couldn’t respect my whole being, I couldn’t respect that I was a woman!

I can’t complain about my current life, I try to be in the feeling of love and harmony and if I do so I feel love and harmony come back to me from others. Unfortunately I can’t keep this level all the time and fall back sometimes, mainly in my job. I got new role, I was promoted and it brought more responsibilities and more tasks to do. Often I feel I need it, because it is good for me to face new tasks and new challenges that I can fulfill so I’m successful in it. Another time I wish a calmer workplace, due to the stress, mainly when I woke up during the night and the work is in my brain.

At home I’m in harmony with my partner; we respect and understand each other. Our relationship changed a lot. I have a good relationship with my children; our relationship has improved a lot. I’m a little bit surprised about the respect I got from my older son, but it is a great pleasure for me.

E.

The education of the Divine Self-Awareness has been started in Hungarian language,

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